wad is wrong with me
y i feel so emo every single day
nth can make me happy
nth can cheer me up
i dunno wad had happen to me
who can tell me ? anyone?
who can stop me from emoing ? anyone?
who can cheer me up? anyone?
the difference between me n this world is big difference
lots of my friends gt stead n forgot abt me
some cousins of mine gt their own life le n they r happy
y am i nt happy
y am i feel so emo or so left out
who can tell me
who can help me
who in this world really care abt me?(besides family)
do i really really have friends?
Are they with me when im down?
are they with me when i feel sad?
are they with me when i feel so emo?
who can help me or change me?
my crush n love is fading each day

This food i mixed with beef otah ball coffee cake coke Ice Lemon Tea n ice Cream

this food i mixed with char siew chicken,creamy mushroom sauce,fishball,beef,tissue,wet towel

the smell damn nice eww pui la gross

Today nth much to post cos my life is as usual la

eat play sleep eat play sleep eat play sleep eat play sleep 24hr/7weeks/365days

lol

k la dun crap le

woke up 8 plus today cos later going to meet ben n saint pending at 10 am
den called up my cousin
guess wad he still sleepin -.-
den i told his mom say we meeting my friend other place at 10 am
den his mom wake him up to talk to me
i say faster la nw wad time liao come now
he say okok
he reach my hse at 9am
changed to my skinnies
den go straight to mrt
took bus 854 to khatib
den took train down to cck to change to pending
reach pending abt 10 plus
waited for bus 960 to go marina square
thx ben n saint for the chocolate
reached marina msged adore see where she is
she say i at Jurong coming le
her 2nd msg i at queenstown coming le
she came with denise jie
kerlyn called me n say jamie zhi nu sick n can't come
so ok hope she have a speedy recovery
after we met up with adore n denise
5 mins later cong came
den he was talking to cher jie on the phone
den we walk to marina lo
after tat reached marina
cong go fetch cher jie from mrt
den they come le we go food court cos cong haven't eat his lunch
while waiting at the food court kerlyn called up asking where am i
i say food court come open air area
den she came gave me present
thx zhi nu ^^ <3
after cong finish we went to kbox
-.- time to do singing -.-
den i go counter to take my room lor
the gal say hw mani ppl here le i say 12
i say 4 - 5 more ppl coming
she gave me a room tat can have 15 ppl in it
but onli 12 ppl inside
botak wan to come but no money
but he wished me happy bday
thx botak ^^
reached inside room
cher jie cong n they all started choosing song for me to sing
rawr
1st song bei pan
they force me sing but i refuse
2nd song nan ren nu ren
same thing force me sing but i refuse
den cong ben saint n my cousin kinda dulan they walked out of the room
after dat they came in n choose the song an jing for me to sing
well they wan me sing u gt it
after i finish singing they ask me am i singing or chanting -.-
den cong n kerlyn sing wo men de ai
halfway i see cong can't take it
i say let me do the high pitch thingy
guess wad i solo finish the other half of it
ben saint my cousin sing cai hong,zui chang de dian yin&shuo hao de xin fu ne
they share mic while i singing without mic
sing until abit sore lor
haha
suppose to start 2 end at 5
but the counter gimme
start to end at 6
rawr at 5pm we started slowing down singing
me n my cousin went outside ask 1 of the staff wad time end
the staff say 6pm
i was like wthhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
6pm -.-
then we sing until 6 15 till the person say last song
i paid 258.50 for the kbox bday room
-.- ben saint n my cousin say wan go toilet end up using spoon to throw de cream at me
but my cousin sway la the cream go to his shirt hahahaha
after kbox kerlyn ,her stead stormw1nd n her maple son wawa paid me $30
cong paid me inside de room liao
the ppl i forgot to ask are jackie denise jie ben n saint
but guys the money can forget abt it le ba
ben n saint say wan to pay me ok lor other time we meet den pay lor if nt nvm

Tmr gonna buy 1 more skinnies yay
mom bringing me to buy finally
weeeeeeeeeee so happy
den tuesday going out with cousin

ok la
i tired le
gonna sleep
bb

happy bday to whitennerdys aka myself

sian zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
i wan kisiao le laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

wad happen to this small stupid world
wad's wrong with me
me n my big mouth making my cousin's stead ignore him gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
rawrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

morning hao hao de
den at mrt my big mouth go disturb my cousin stead
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
hate myselfffffffffffffffffffffff

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
sibeh bo mooddddddddddddddddddddd
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
going crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
T.T

To:Kerxin

wadever i say in the mrt to u dun blame my cousin

wan blame come blame me

dun leave him

u wan u can throw me away

dun throw him

i dun wan him to get hurt

if he sad i will nt forgive myself

cos to me 1 thing is anyone nt happy come blame me

let me take all the blame

cos i can take it n im used to it le

everything wan blame blame me

i take all n full responsibility for it

n if i dun like it i will live with it

just dun ignore or angry at my cousin can liao

cos i know he really cherish n love u

u can say wadever hurtful things to me

i wan to see u 2 together n last long

let me take all the blame n responsibilities cos im dere for it n im living with it